#BEDM14 Day 2 – What Are You Most Afraid Of?
Fear? Fear is the mind-killer. I won’t have it in the house. No but really, I don’t do fear very much. I’ve already written about this for the last #BEDM and it says pretty much everything I want to say on the subject, so by all means go back and read it by clicking on these words.
I honestly don’t think I’m scared of anything, really. I intensely dislike spiders, but I’m not scared of them. I don’t run the other way when I see one, I rain down bloody death on it. Any boys who dislike spiders: I am your hero. I make the little fuckers suffer. Heights don’t bother me any more, I’m fine with flying and the only thing that upsets me about the number 13 is that it’s not divisible by 2. I don’t really have one of the “traditional” phobias. When I was little my uncle surprised me by walking into the room with a rubber gorilla mask on and I absolutely lost my shit, but I’m fine now, aside from a lingering distrust of inanimate rubbery faces. Which is why I don’t like Joan Rivers, bah-dum-ching.
No but for serious, those rubber horse masks that were all the rage a while back do make me a little uncomfortable, along with anything that falls into the deep trough of the Uncanny Valley. It’s not at phobic levels but it does edge me toward “at some point that bastard thing is going to try to pull my soul out through my nostrils so get ready to punch it until you have bloody stumps for hands” mode. As I mentioned before, I don’t get scared. I get angry.
In terms of intangibles I guess the only things that scare me are growing so decrepit that I can no longer look after myself, and dying early of cancer, the latter of which is not unknown on both sides of my family. But that’s for the future which is a place I seldom visit, and if needs must I’m sure I can scrape enough cash together for a one-way to Dignitas – if they’ll take that ridiculous old bag that wanted to check out because she didn’t like Twitter, I’m sure they’d have me.
Here and now though I’m healthy, (relatively) fit, and fearless.