#BEDM Day 20: Get Real
Get real. Share something you’re struggling with right now.
Well let’s see. I think I’ve already covered my weight and the parlous state of my finances. They’re the only two big things in my life that are a struggle at present. Um, I guess I could talk about work?
I do enjoy my job, despite it feeling like I’m in charge of a shop full of squalling toddlers that have all shit themselves and sat in it, but it does take its toll. My lower back aches terribly sometimes and the hours are frankly a bit crap. And after three years of hard labour I’m getting weary of it all. But I have very little natural ambition; I feel no urge to move up the ladder, such as it is, and besides; the pay is almost the same as mine is now, I’d have to start travelling more most likely, and I’d be paying for that extra travel too. And I really don’t like managing people. People piss me off, I’m not well-qualified to deal with them. So I’m stuck between the devil and the deep blue sea; I’m struggling to stay motivated to carry on doing the job I’m doing, but I don’t want to move upwards despite everyone at work telling me I should.
But I’m not really qualified to do anything else. Being a shop boy is all I really know how to do and my finances are such that I cannot risk taking a job that is less secure than the one I have now, which is as close to cast-iron as its possible to get these days. So yeah, that’s what I’m struggling with at the moment. Too tired to do my job for much longer but no interest in moving on.
Answers on a postcard?